Half way across a bridge that just doesn't want to stop burning... Why are there so many things that I want, no need to say, and yet I can't just say them? A couple of years ago, I prided myself in being independant; not needing anyone but me. How can in just 3 years so much change? I don't understand my constant longing for someone to be there, and yet when someone's there, I long to be alone. How can life become so complicated over a little thing like communication? Can't we all just open our mouths and say what needs to be said? Answer: No. If we said all that needed to be said, it would cause problems, or complications. And who wants to add that to our lives when everything else seems to be copasetic? If that chain reaction were to start, there would be no stopping it... so here I stand, fully ablaze in the fire of doubt waiting for the moment when I can talk again. Wednesday 11-14-07 10:00 am Earbuds in, music moderately loud: I can't hear a word the teacher is saying, but her mouth is moving. How many times this past week have I been in her position?
As of late I have felt I open my mouth to speak and all that comes out is silence. How can someone talk and never be heard?
Sitting in class watching the teacher talk and not hearing a word, allowed me to come to a realization that I do not want to face yet. I have so much to say and yet the one person I want to talk to I can't. So many people I can to talk to, but they don't want to listen. So many people who want to listen but I don't talk to them. Wow I need to go to bed... | 
